Hi Ren | Ren (Song)

Intro:

Creating this song wasn’t easy, but I’m so proud of how it turned out.

Want to say a big thank you for everyones support over the years. During the years trapped inside with chronic health problems the main thing that kept me going was a belief that one day I would come out the other side, and be able to achieve success through music.

I don’t have a label, and sometimes pushing these things as hard as I want becomes a massive challenge, and I find myself frustrated that there aren’t enough hours in the day to push it as far as I want to.

I would love to ask a favour to anyone who has ever enjoyed my music over the years, and it will only take a few minutes of your day.It would mean the world to me if you shared ‘Hi Ren’ as much as you can, over social media platforms, with friends, over email.

Together, and with your help I can hopefully reach people all over the world, and get one step closer to the dream I always had! Thank you so much for the support so far!

Ren

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Song written, performed, directed by Ren Cinamatographer – Samuel Perry-Falvey First A.C. – Joshua styles Lighting – Jacob Neller Location – Will Rumfitt

https://youtu.be/s_nc1IVoMxc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s_nc1IVoMxc

Content Source/Owner: Ren

https://www.renmakesmusic.co.uk/

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Hi there, RenIt’s been a little while, did you miss me?You thought you’d buried me, didn’t you? Risky…‘Cause I always come backDeep down you know that…Deep down you know I’m always in peripheryRen, aren’t you pleased to see me?It’s been weeks since we spoke bro, I know you need meYou’re the sheep, I’m the shepherd, not your place to lead meNot your place to be biting off the hand that feeds me

Hi, RenI’ve been taking some time to be distantI’ve been taking some time to be stillI’ve been taking some time to be by myself since my therapist told me I’m illAnd I’ve been making some progress latelyAnd I’ve learnt some new coping skillsSo I haven’t really needed you much manI think we need to just step back and chill

Ren, you sound more insane than I doYou think that those doctors are really there to guide you?Been through this a million timesYour civilian mind is so perfect at always being lied toOkay, take another pill, boyDrown yourself in the sound of white noiseFollow this 10 step program, rejoice!All your problems will be gone! Fucking dumb boy

Nah mate, this time it’s different man trust meI feel like things might be falling in placeAnd my music’s been kinda doing bits tooLike I actually might do something greatAnd when I’m gone maybe I’ll be rememberedFor doing something special with myselfThat’s why I don’t think that we should talk, man‘Cause when you’re with me it never seems to help

You think that you can amputate me?I am you, you are me, you are I, I am weWe are one, split in two that makes one so you seeYou got to kill you if you wanna kill meI’m not left over dinner, I’m not scraps on the sideOh your music is thriving? Delusional guy!Where’s your top ten hit? Where’s your interview with Oprah?Where are your Grammys, Ren? Nowhere!

Yeah but, my music’s not commercial like thatI never chased numbers, statistics or statsI never write hooks for the radioThey never even play me, so why would I concern myself with that?But my music is really connectingAnd the people who find it respect itAnd for me that’s enough ’cause this life’s been toughSo it gives me a purpose I can rest in

Man, you sound so pretentious!Ren, your music is so self-centeredNo one wants to hear another song about how much you hate yourself, trust meYou should be so luckyHaving me inside you to guide youRemind you to manage expectations, provide youPerspective, that thing you neglected, I get itYou wanna be a big deal… Next Jimi Hendrix? Forget it

Man, it’s not like that

Man, it’s just like thatI’m inside you, you twat

Nah, it’s not, man, you’re wrong, when I write I belong

Let me break the fourth wall by acknowledging this song

Ren sits downHas a stroke of geniusHe wants to write a song that was not done previousA battle with his subconscious…Eminem did it

Played on guitar

Plan B did itMan, you’re not original, you criminalRip off artist, the pinnacle of your success is stealing other people’s materialRen, mate, we’ve heard it all beforeOhh “she sells sea shells on the sea shore”

Fuck you, I don’t need you, I don’t need to hear this‘Cause I’m fine by myself, I’m a genius!And I will be great, and I will make wavesAnd I’ll shake up the whole world beneath us

That’s right, speak your truthYour fucking god complex leaks out of youIt’s refreshing to actually hear you say it!Instead of down play it…

“Oh, music is all about the creative process and if people can find something to relate to within that then that’s just a bonus”

Fuck you, Ima fucking kill you, Ren

Well, fucking kill me thenLet’s fucking have you, Ren

Ima do it, watch me prove it, who are you to doubt my music?‘Cause I call the shots I choose if you die

Yeah, I call the shots and so I who choose who survivesI’ll tie you up in knots then I’ll lock you inside

News flash…I was created at the dawn of creationI am temptationI am the snake in EdenI am the reason for treasonBeheading all KingsI am sin with no rhyme or reasonSun of the morning, LuciferAntichrist, father of liesMephistophelesTruth in a blenderDeceitful pretenderThe banished avengerThe righteous surrenderWhen standing in front of my solar eclipseMy name it is stitched to your lips so you seeI won’t bow to the will of a mortal, feeble and normalYou wanna kill me? I’m eternal, immortalI live in every decisionThat catalyzed chaos that causes divisionI live inside death, the beginning of endsI am you, you are me, I am you, Ren

Hi Ren…I’ve been taking some time to be distantI’ve been taking some time to be stillI’ve been taking some time to be by myself and I’ve spent half my life illBut just as sure as the tide starts turningJust as sure as the night has dawnJust as sure as the rain fall soon runs dry when you stand in the eye of the storm

I was made to be tested and twistedI was made to be broken and beatI was made by his hand, it’s all part of his plan that I stand on my own two feetAnd you know me, my will is eternalAnd you know me, you’ve met me beforeFace to face with a beast I will rise from the east and I’ll settle on the ocean floorAnd I go by many names alsoSome people know me as hopeSome people know me as the voice that you hear when you loosen the noose on the ropeAnd you know how I know that I’ll prosper?‘Cause I stand here beside you todayI have stood in the flames that cremated my brainAnd I didn’t once flinch or shakeSo cower at the man I’ve becomeWhen I sing from the top of my lungsThat I won’t retire, I’ll stand in your fire, inspire the meek to be strongAnd when I am gone I will riseIn the music that I left behindFerocious persistent, immortal like youWe’re a coin with two different sides

When I was 17 years old I shouted out into an empty room, into a blank canvas, that I would defeat the forces of evil, and for the next 10 years of my life I suffered the consequences… With autoimmunity, illness and psychosis. As I got older, I realized there were no real winners or no real losers in physiological warfare. But there were victims and there were students. It wasn’t David versus Goliath, it’s was a pendulum eternally swaying from the dark to the light. And the more intensely that the light shone, the darker the shadow it cast.

It was never really a battle for me to win, it was an eternal dance, and like a dance, the more rigid I became, the harder it got. The more I cursed my clumsy footsteps, the more I struggled. And so I got older and I learned to relax, and I learned to soften, and that dance got easier. It is this eternal dance that separates human beings from angels, from demons, from gods. And I must not forget, we must not forget, that we are human beings.

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Songwriter: Ren Gill

Lyrics source: https://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/ren/hiren.html